Rabbit Trails

  "This I declare about the Lord: He alone is my refuge, my place of safety; for He is my God, and I trust Him." Psalm 91:2

  It's hard to believe it's only been a week since the last post. It feels like much longer. Life has been a whirlwind of activity and it finally caught up with me today. The overwhelm tears are sitting at the bridge of my nose, just waiting to fall. 

  Feeling utterly exhausted, I tried to take a nap but the ole gray matter had different plans. I have no idea why the thoughts and memories come up the way they do but it was enough for me to give up and get up. Writing is just the ticket to help calm my mind.

  Part of the thoughts were about not knowing where my riding helmet was. It caused a brief tidal wave of mini-panic before the logical brain spoke up. Silly goose, you haven't needed it for twenty years. It wasn't anything you brought into your new life anyways.

  The thoughts of horses kept on coming...the farm where my friend and I spent a couple of summers just hanging out every day, riding, or just sitting on the horses without a saddle. Time raced forward to the second time I rode my green broke warmblood mare when the body remembered the bareback summers of long ago and my rider's seat returned. Strange thoughts come from a sleepy brain.

  Why the horses, I wonder.

  God is good. A friend just called to see if I was going to go to a debriefing meeting today at 4. It's about the PRIDE event my co-workers organized for last Saturday. I told her I was at capacity and wouldn't be going. It helped to share some of what's going on and I feel much lighter.

  While I wasn't overly involved in the planning of this event, I offered to do all the barbequing being the one who spends a lot of time outside and could handle the extra heat from the grill. The most important reason is being able to stay on the edge of the busyness and not have to interact with a lot of people. It's never been my forte anyways.

  It was loud with live music and lots of people. Once the need for food tapered off, the grill was packed up and I left. It will get a good cleaning the next time I am at the office.

  I'd wrestled with being part of it. PRIDE is about celebrating things many Christians condemn and even resort to hate to justify their actions and words.

  The Lord helped figure out my own stance on the whole idea. As a believer it is very difficult to celebrate and glorify what I view as sin according to my moral code and beliefs. However, as one who has lived without Jesus, it is not my place to point fingers. My place was to support my co-workers in their endeavors regardless of my personal beliefs. 

  I did not wear any rainbow clothing or stickers that denoted my sexuality. Not that there was one for a heterosexual anyways. Inclusivity always seems to leave someone out regardless of what group is celebrating what. This applies to Christians, too, you know.

  Making the decision to go put me in position to pray for everyone there, Ninja style. (Smile.) It made it all worthwhile.

  Yesterday after church we had a big barbeque to celebrate our new pastor. More crowds. More busy and even though I know everyone there, it was a relief when we left.

  Wednesday is another crowd event...a work barbeque and party. It's an all day thing...need I say more?

  My friend and I have also been very busy, emptying her mom's room at the senior's home. When she found out it was going to be offered as a respite room, it seemed important to provide some items to make it homier, just like her mom had it...homey. I've donated a water colour painting that has been sitting in a portfolio for years. We've put new frames on a couple of pictures (yes, this involved shopping at multiple stores) and bought a comfy, easy to get out of chair.

  Her mom had a painting inscribed with Psalm 37:7 hanging above the bed. "Rest in the LORD and wait patiently for Him." A family member wants to have it so we are going to create our own version to hang above the bed. The residence manager specifically asked for this verse to be there.

  Only God knows what seeds this will sow.

  There seems to be a million other things going on but I'm glad to have taken the time to write because my mind is much quieter now. It's too late in the afternoon to try napping again so I think I'll head outside and see what the garden is doing. Yup, barefoot through the grass sounds absolutely lovely!