The Black River is a journey in faith. It delves into an exploration of life: from the calm, clear waters of the good days, the mundane, to the swirling eddies and deep waters of issues that face every one of us. Thank you for visiting this site. You can contact me personally at: godandtheblackriver@gmail.com
Friday, 7 June 2013
A Bit Mixed Up by Susan L.
I confess I am getting hate and anger all twisted around. Season it with dollop of fatigue, a dash of unwanted bitterness and blatherings like yesterday's blog explode.
The Black River's waters are still gaining strength and I am afraid. There it is. On paper. In black and white. Confession. Admission. Honesty offered up to God.
Writing about anger is safer than exploring the stew of my own upwelling emotions. Fall out from TIR therapy (Traumatic Incident Reduction). Other unpleasant memories cascade through my mind. Connected, nightmare events I wish I could just walk away from. The memories are so vivid, I can even smell them. I have no strength to deny them.
It was so long ago but at the same time feels like yesterday when insult was added to injury; the deep and cutting wounds that rocked my reality.
Being laughed at, mocked, for my anger. Dismissed. Disregarded. Denied. Help me, Father, find forgiveness in my heart.
Live me. Love me. Show me. Grow me, my Lord. Please, set me free! In Jesus' name I pray.
"And that you put on the new man which was created according to God, in true righteousness and holiness." Eph 4:24
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Yesterday's blog wasn't blathering! It was insightful, honest, and very discerning on your part. The learning process will bring ups and downs, as does the healing process. Some things need to be "unlearned" too. We're all on the journey :).
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