Wednesday, 1 October 2014

Hurry Up and Wait by Susan L.

  I placed the order for the DNA test kit yesterday. Now there's nothing to do but wait: for it to arrive, for it to be returned with the cheek swab sample, for the results to come back. In the meantime, I've placed an inquiry with the local Children's Aid. They're going to get in touch with the information about who to contact if they can't help me.  
  I've not needed to know any of this stuff for fifty years although questions have arisen over the years only to be set aside. (It's always a shock when I write my age...When did that happen?) A couple of weeks is neither here nor there.
  Who am I kidding?  Hurry up already! Now the decision is made to pursue the long hidden mysteries of my birth and adoption, the answers can't come fast enough!
  Lord, I leave all of this in Your hands. Your timing is the best timing. I've done my part, help me to stand still and calm and patient. I know there is no one on this planet who knows me better than You, even better than I know myself. Thank You that You have helped me discover untold truths about my identity, the good stuff and the flaws. Thank You for Your grace and forgiveness that helps smooth the rough bits away.
  I thank You as well for my Mom and Dad who raised me from a ten day old infant, who opened their hearts and their home to a tiny scrap of a baby girl. I thank You that my own step children were welcomed as my own by their Gramma, that her love for all children surpasses the ties of blood. Thank You that I inherited from her the capacity to love two wonderful children who needed a mom in their lives.
  Lord, I thank You for the women who have brought life into this world. Bless them for the priceless gifts they give families who cannot. Bless them for their sacrifice. I am richer because of them: as a person and as a mom.
  All this I pray in Jesus Name.
  "For you did not receive the spirit of bondage again to fear, but you received the Spirit of adoption by whom we cry out, "Abba, Father." The Sprit Himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, and if children, then heirs--heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer with Him, that we may also be glorified together." Rom 8:15-17


  1. I am in awe of your accomplishments! You go!