Brainstorming Bits by Susan L.

Being overwhelmed creates mental paralysis. Now the door's been opened, it's time to prioritize what's important to improve my state of mind. I need to give a voice to the turmoil of emotions these decisions create. (Sounds like WRAP, wellness Recovery Action Plan!) Church is a biggy. No. This is connected to my therapist. After being together for seven years, we are slowly lessening the frequency that we meet. We've come a long time way together and this is a good sign but it is frightening to face the absence of someone who has been an integral part of my life. That's part of why I started going back to church. Trying to establish a support system before flying solo, so to speak. It hasn't gone well. I like the pastor. He's a wonderful and approachable man. The people are warm and welcoming. Sunday services are simply too noisy, too busy. Fighting panic attacks is not conclusive to connecting with God. I have left church every Sunday emotionally and physically drained. I think I'll set this on the back burner to simmer for a while. Deciding not to go has stirred up its own stew of emotions. I need to hear the words, "It's not a failure!" "We, however, will not boast beyond measure, but within the limits of the sphere which God appointed us." 2 Car 10:12